Blog post #11- Personality

I am an extremely outgoing person who is sociable, friendly, fun loving, and talkative. Sometimes I think I just like to hear myself talk. I am neither organized or disorganized. My room is somewhat organized but I think a little chaos in your life is healthy. I'm not that creative. I have a few creative ideas now and then but I tend to be more conventional and down to earth. Most of the time I'm more concerned with others feelings than my own. I'm very sypathetic, just seeing someone else cry makes me cry, and I do forgive people. Almost too easily. I don't think I could do something for myself without stopping once to consider how it will affect someone else. I'm never really nervous or calm. I tend to be right in the middle. I can be nervous when I speak in front of crowds or meeting new people. Otherwise, I'm calm and don't really worry that much. I also tend to wear my heart on my sleeve. I fall in love really easily and it takes me awhile to fall out of love. My current boyfriend and I have been dating for over a year, and the first time I told him that I loved him was 3 weeks into our relationship. Luckily for me, he didn't freak out and told me 2 weeks later that he felt the same way. I'm not the kind of person who will hold back my opinion. I will tell you my honest opinion. This can be a good thing and a bad thing. It's good because I don't want to tell people what I think they want to hear. If my sister is looks big in a pair of jeans(Which is hard for her since she is size 3) I will tell her. But if my sister asks me how she played in her volleyball game, I would tell her she played her hardest and that she did well. She may not be the best but to her, she played well. This of course could never happen. My sister is 21 and literally is amazing at volleyball.

I believe that I am more optimistic than pessimistic. I am optimistic when I look at my life or at little situations. Something good will always happen. If you try your hardest and still loose the game, you may feel terrible but a scout saw you play and sent you a letter to go to their college. I try to look at life as a pathway that needs to be discovered, not an obstacle. I can be pessimistic at times also. My great uncle resently died and a young age. He was 64, but that was still young and he was so healthy. He was out hunting and died of a heart attack. He was the second to die in his brothers and sisters and he was the youngest. I couldn't see how he could die, I looked at this as a punishment to me. I died for no reason, but later I came to realize that Jack died because God needed another angle. We could have used him down here, but God wanted him first. Being more optimistic than pessimistic has impacted my life in a lot of ways. I look at each day differently and try to see what could come next. Each day should be a blessing, not a burdon. This also impacts my life because it allows me to be there for others. When my friends or family are having a tough time, optimism helps to know what to say and to try to make every thing better.

Some triats of mine that can change from situations is how enthusiastic I am and my honesty. At a funeral I am not enthusiastic. I'm usually crying and trying to comfort my friends and family. I may be a little happy to try and cheer them up, but deep down I'm sad too and I just want to cry, not laugh. When I'm trying to protect the ones I love, I'm usually not honest. I'm not going to tell my little cousins and neice that santa doesn't exist. It would break their hearts. I also wouldn't be completely honest if it would hurt someone else. If someone asked me a questiona and by being honest I would hurt their feelings, then I would probably lie just a little because I hate hurting others feelings. Change in our habits benefits us because it allows us to adapt to the emotions and personalitys of those around us. If you swore a lot, would you still be swearing in front of your grandparents. No, you would change your personality for the time being because it allows you to connect with your grandparents on a different level.

When a family member dies, I use the defence mechanism of regression. I find myself wanting to hug my mom and dad when I'm scared. Being scared as a child, I would always hug my mom or dad because they were a form of protection. Now being 18, I still finding my hugging my mom and dad when I'm sad, usually if I'm scared I hug my boyfriend now. When I'm stressing over high school drama, or tests, or even an arguement with a friend, I find myself snapping at my sister or at my parents. This usually causes more trouble because they get mad at me, and then I really get mad at them. Displacement doesn't really help anyone. You find more of reaction formation in elementary school. I remember when I was younger, there was one boy who always pick on me. I thought he was the meanest boy I could have ever met. Come to find out in high school, he told me that he had a crush on me when we were younger. I couldn't figure him out, for so long I thought he had hated me, and then come to find out, he had actually liked me.